(Day 241 / -115 lbs.) What Have I Got to Lose?

What DO I have left to lose? Well, about 35 pounds if I did the math right. (Um, let's see... 150 minus 115...carry the one...no...yes...yes...almost there...) Yep, 35 pounds- that's right! Yes, thirty five pounds and I can check off my goal of losing 150 pounds before my next birthday. One hundred and fifty big ones. One hundred fifty pounds and I'll be able to call myself merely "over-weight" rather than some variation of "obese". Woo-hoo! Party time! Go nuts!

Wait! What?

OK, here's the thing- Yes, 150 pounds is a hell of a lot of weight. I ought to know, I've carried it around for a while. It wasn't an easy thing to do even after spreading it over my entire 6"5' frame. But I was a big boy and somehow I managed. Kudos to me. There comes a time, though, when it just hits you- say after you've outgrown everything in your closet and even your sweats are feeling a little snug. Yeah, that dark little moment when you realize that it's time to turn this truck around; that you'd better change something before you jack-knife right there on the highway and spill your entire load- or worse. When you realize that stroke, heart disease, diabetes and all those other obesity related horrors don't just happen to those other fat guys down the block.

So here I am burdened with the knowledge that years of fast food and sitting on my ass has somehow lumped me in with all those other fat guys on death row who are clanking their cups against the bars demanding just one more calzone and a conjugal visit from the Grim Reaper and I'm thinking Attica, Attica, get me outta this fat suit and grant me just one more reprieve so I can someday see my feet when I pee and live to see my kids graduate from college.

Whew! That was a caffeinated moment.

Well, obtuse metaphors, obscure references, and mild insanity aside, my motivation for self-repair is very real and fire-hot. My goal of losing this particular quantity of bio-mass (150 lbs.) is but part of a greater renaissance and each pound lost is a step towards that new beginning.

My plan includes a brief period of being overweight. I'm looking forward to it and looking back makes me want to run all that much faster. I'm 35 pounds from husky and I just can't wait.